(1) My little peanut.....of course:
Over the years I have heard the phrase, "I could just eat you up" countless times. Normally its coming from someone of an older generation, so I assumed it was an old school thing. But now, I can honestly say that I understand exactly what they meant. No wonder some animals eat their children......they are just TOO damn cute!! :)
(2) My amazing husband. He hasn't taken 1 day off since Pace arrived......just totally swamped.....but you would never know it. He is so helpful and thoughtful and supportive. Despite his long hours, he still manages to be around and available whenever we need him. He must feel like he is being pulled in a million different directions (picture stretch armstrong....or inspector gadget, if you will), but he does it with such a calm, cool demeanor that it looks almost easy. I'm not saying that motherhood isn't daunting, but I guess I just appreciate that he is trying his best to be everything for us. He never ceases to amaze me. Never.
(3) My wonderful family: Without them, I really don't think I would have made it through the last three months. Pace is an amazing child (like sleeping through the night at 2 months, amazing), but it's still a tough job and everyone has been unbelievably supportive. It is wonderful to have them around for my own sanity, but I also love that Pace is becoming so close to his grandparents, aunts and uncles, and cousins at such an early age. I am truly blessed.
My mom, especially, has been my rock. Any time I needed anything, she was there by my side....whether it was a last minute drive to be with me while Brian traveled or a phone call in the middle of the night to ask advice or just vent. Pace looks unhappy in this photo, but I assure you that you can't wipe the smile off his face when grandma is around. Just pure joy. He almost always gets the hiccups when he is with her because he giggles so much. It is adorable. I just love watching them bond.
(4) Friends: It amazes me every day how lucky we are to have so many wonderful friends in our lives. They have all been so thoughtful and generous and supportive since Pace arrived. He came into a world with so much love and affection around him. I could not be more grateful for all of the well wishes and visits and phone calls from everyone since he has arrived. On the days when I felt like I was the worst parent in the world (for no particular reason, usually), I could turn to my friends and they would tell me how they did the same thing or they felt the same way at some point too. I knew that I was never the only one in the world that was feeling that way or dealing with that emotion, but sometimes it felt like that and I didn't know what to do. But just 2 minutes into a conversation with one of my friends and I would be laughing and smiling about it. What would I have done and what will I do without you all. Not only am I thankful for the wonderful people that have been in our lives (both individually and as a couple) for years and years, but I am also so grateful to God or the real-estate fairy or WHOEVER it was that brought us to this town and this street. There are 4 other babies under the age of 1 on my street (who will all go to school with Pace) and even more babies his age right around the corner. We are truly blessed to be in this neighborhood and in this house (which I am also thankful for).
(5) The ability to stay home: I don't think I've updated you all on my situation, but B and I decided that it would be alright financially if I stayed home a little longer with Pace before returning to work/school (whatever I decide to do). I did ask my company for a part-time schedule, but they really needed someone full-time for my position. I was a little disappointed at first, but now that I have officially been a stay-at-home-mom for a few weeks, I feel so much better about the decision. I couldn't imagine missing all of his smiles and laughs and cries.....any of it. It is all so precious. I was never really in love with my job, anyway, so this is the perfect chance for me to start over. Maybe go back to school or take some classes. I will decide on that in the next few months, but for now I am enjoying my one-on-one time with Pace. He has changed my world and I am so excited to see what the future brings for the both of us.....
And of course, (6) I am thankful for all of you that have continued to read despite my long hiatus. I apologize for dropping off the map for a while, but I really appreciate that you stuck by my side and continue to read. It means the world to me. And I really do have a lot of fun stuff happening in our casa that I can't wait to share with you. From the slow-moving basement renovation to the little art/photo projects I've been working on.....I have a lot to fill you in on!! And now that Pace is starting to get into a nap schedule during the day, I can allot some time each day to sit down and write. I'm sure you haven't been waiting with bated breath for my next post (haha), but I hope that you will tune in over the next few months for some exciting changes!! I have also been bad about visiting all of your sites lately, so I promise to get back into that as well. I am truly lacking in the inspiration department these days, so I'm eager to see what you have all been up to!!!
So thanks again for reading and following along with my crazy life. And even if no one is reading this anymore, it feels so so so good to be writing and thinking again....haha!! And not the kind of thinking that is required to fill a 6 oz. bottle or do the laundry. I almost feel a sigh of relief now that I've written....like a weight is lifted off my shoulders and I can relax now that some of those thoughts have been released from my mind. Does anyone else feel like that when they write?
And I'm sure there are a million and one things that I am forgetting on my thank you list, but those are the real important ones. Other than that, there are just some other general ones, like financial stability, health, etc. But those aren't as fun to talk about......
What are you thankful for this year??